Wednesday Garret comes home, and then maybe I’ll be a little more distracted.
I miss my school friends, which really surprises me. My lunch table was actually pretty great. Fucking TJ, I miss him so bad.
I have tan lines, barely, but I avoided getting burnt. I also painted my nails.
After this week, we need to make plans. Yeah
making this online class my bitch!
but not really ): I finished all of unit 4 just now, and it took 3 hours. wahhh
summer summer summer
Monday Monday Monday | Tegan and Sara
♫ Monday Monday Monday
Your house or mine
I don’t really care about it anymore
I close my eyes
I make myself unhappy so you’ll go
Without me
Oh what’s wrong with you
Monday Monday Monday
this is the weirdest nighjt. Forreals I am so excited to see what alex has to say tomorrow.fucking filibertos is the nastiest shit though
damn, this was fun
My brother and his friends are the nicest. I should’ve studied tonight, but I really did not want to be alone. Instead, Kyle let me tag along. Tonight was fun, and I’m glad that they all love me. I’m so excited for summer for more nights like tonight.
Respect to your work, you’re an artist,
I’m a silly jerk
I think that dynamic could work
So work it
Sometimes I cry because I’m an atheist and there’s no heaven. I doesn’t actually bother me except that I miss my cousin.
That got me thinking about how this school year is almost over. This year was absolutely ridiculous. Starting with summer, it’s all just crazy. MacKenzie and I were friends and then we weren’t. Dobson told me he’d never want me and then he did and then he loved me and I love him and now he’s gone. My brothers both went to college. Three of my best friends stopped going to DRHS. My dog died on Christmas. My cousin died a week later. My uncle got sick. I was alone at lunch. I made new friends at lunch. I designed and made a set that got me a superior, learned how to sew and made costumes, did a dance concert and one acts and comic relief, and went to CAAF and state one acts festival and thespian festival. I failed multiple physics tests. I got a new dog. I went to prom with my best friends. I turned 17. I smoked a lot of weed and drank some and slept on a trampoline. I saw Blink-182 live. I taught ADL and pretended I liked it. I joined NHS and didn’t pretend to like it, except Relay for Life was fun. I redid my room; I cleaned it spotless, and then never kept up with it. I saw Say Anything and Thrice. I went to a wedding. I baked a lot of delicious things. My best friend moved. I started driving stick. Larry became central to my sleeping habits. This year was weird I guess. So much has happened that has taught me about myself. I expected it to be nonstop hangouts with my friends, and although we all love each other, I feel like this is the year we’ve been most distant. It’s not a bad thing, it’s that we’re busy growing up.
And that’s hard for me to understand, the idea of getting older. This time next year we’ll be graduating. For me, it’s not easy because I am for sure going out of state. I won’t be back unless it’s summer or christmas. I won’t see my family or my friends. I won’t see Dobson. Everything I have ever known will be different, and I can’t tell if that’s good or bad. The peak of my life should not be high school, but I am so very content now. I’m full of sadness currently, but I’m positive that it’s only temporary.
Thrice always has the most intense everything. I got elbowed (hard) in the back of the head, punched in the face twice, and I still stayed up the entire time. I’m sore as fuck and cover in sweat and beer, but my god that was a fantastic show. It was mostly old stuff with a little bit of Major/Minor, Beggars, and The Alchemy Index thrown in, meaning they played at least five songs from Identity Crisis and five from The Illusion of Safety and four ish from Vheissu. I can’t even put into words how fucking awesome it was. They played songs from 2001 that they wrote when they were in high school, and the audience knew every single word.
I really like Thrice because they have sincere dedication and an appreciation for humanity and their fans. Teppei, Eddie, Riley, and Dustin have never split up since they formed in 1998. They make music because they enjoy it, and they have never really advertised their humble selves. Part of profits from every album they make goes to charity.
It’s heartbreaking that they’re going on hiatus. “Oh, you know me. Oh, and I know you; and I know that we can see this through.”
